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It has been ages since I posted anything on here. Get ready because I will soon be using this again as a main source of communication. Unfortunately London is a no go...I will post my thoughts to this later. Instead I will be heading to Sydney Australia! More details to follow.

Right now I am in a bit of a random mood. I just hit a rabbit with my car, only the third animal I have ever knowingly hit. The first was a cat with "I Will Remember You" by Sarah McLachlan playing in the car. Sam was with me...what a situation that could have turned out to be. The second was a skunk on Country Road I by the curve near where Matt Cooper used to live. Now a rabbit. The sound under the car made my stomach turn. And to look in your rear-view mirror, hoping to see the rabbit hop away, even though it is too dark to see anything. The urge to turn around to make sure it hopped away safely.

What makes me hold certain friends accountable and allow others to slip between the acceptability crack? Why is it when some friends tell you they are doing things wrong, you call them on it and try to help them out? Yet when other friends say/do things that are against your view of what is morally right you say nothing? Is it because you value one friend over the other? Am I too cowardly to confront the friend? Is my friendship with that person based on other things: fun and craziness? Or could it be that we are so comfortable with each other we are willing to throw it out there without fear of judgment? We can be open without fear of consequences? How healthy is that? On one side, it is an incredibly healthy environment...very safe. The other hand it could be destructive...are not friends supposed to keep us honest and true to ourselves? One of those gray lines in life (and I say "one of those" very lightly).

Why do people think it is weird to see a movie by yourself? I have seen two recently on my own. I walk into the theatre ashamed that I am not with friends. Who cares? You do not talk to them during the movie, no need to argue over the aisle... I know it is nice to be with friends, but when you have a free evening and want to see a movie? Sometimes it is more of a challenge to find someone to go with than actually going. I guess that has been my mood lately. Sad, probably. I think it has something to do with the funk I have been in lately. Where are all the calls?

Off to bed and the same old same old.